Saturday, February 28, 2009

God is good....

I have had a lot on my mind lately. I've prayed and cried.....and cried and prayed. My heart has ached because despite my abrasive exterior, I truly hurt when people think that I've said/done something that I haven't that has hurt them, when God had spoken to my heart months ago telling me to turn the other cheek and not respond, instead of being catty (which is VERY hard for me) I am flawed....I am broken.

It seemed like nothing would go right.....I stubb my toe, my nails break, I'm retaining water like a melon. I reminded myself I was just being overly emotional and letting everything bother me......then the dryer breaks. That was the straw. "It's ALWAYS something." Granted...this poor dryer is 30 years old, but it's old-faithful. My husband's motto is "if it ain't broke...don't replace it". So Friday I get to work, check on the bills processing from our checking and see what to my surprise??? A bonus that we weren't expecting. We don't count bonuses as part of our income towards bills but extra to save. Guess how much the bonus was? Enough to cover a dryer. (even though we aren't going to buy one) I think it was God's way of saying....."I'm listening". 

Before I left work, my boss reminded me that as of next Tuesday, I've been there a year and I'm up for a raise and bonus. I had forgotten. The raise will cover formula. See....once again, God makes a way. He's been showing me this for the last 8 years, when two kids making less than 10k a year had a baby. 

I named this post God is good because...well....God IS good, but that's what our son's name means. When I think of his name, or say it, I'm reminded that it's by God's grace he's here and that everything we have is a blessing. 

6 comments:

K Storm said...

That was beautiful.

Jen said...

What a wonderful post! :) God is Good. He comes through when you least expect it but most of the time, he is always there.

(((HUGS&LOVE)))

mayberry said...

Amen sister. Amen.

Supermom said...

God is good for sure!

(did you get the dryer fixed? since you said you weren't buying one?)

black betty said...

i hate it when people make you sad. makes me wanna kick their f'kin' ass. wait, maybe i can in the next few weeks...cause then i won't be PREGNANT anymore, biotches!!! :)

love you. mean it...more than ever.

AM said...

Twitchy and Farto fixed it last night AND put the crib together!!!! Yay!