I have flaw that causes me and other a lot of pain....extremely high expectations of people, including myself. After the previous heartaches, I think my heart was reassembled....but not flawlessly like God can....it was more of a jagged careless reassembly with gaps, as if I tried to piece it together myself. I've been praying asking God to break it, taking away some of my expectations. I'm not asking him to make it new....just whole so that this flaw doesn't cause me and my children, me and my husband more pain.
As I walked my penguin-waddlerific rounds tonite....I prayed, I listened and cried. I listened to Jonny Lang's "Only a man"....and God says....
I fell down and cried, Dear Jesus, rescue me again
I understand I am only a man
And He said, "What will it be now?Will you choose me or keep swimming up stream now?
I've been inside your head hearing you scream out.Well here I am, just take my hand and I'll take out All of the pain and all of the fear
All of the fear
5 comments:
I hear ya on the reassembled heart. I am definately there.
i have no words, but i completely understand.
Praying for you.
And I read the other post first. Some things make no sense.
Wow. On both posts.
You're a good person, don't forget that.
btw, the first post made me almost vomit to think that a person could put a LIVE baby in a biohazard bag. the hair on my arm is still standing up.
i am enraged.
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