Well....

It isn't....I remember the day I saw the lite pink line the first time. I left that damn test sitting in the same place thinking that maybe if I went back later...the results may have changed. I kinda feel that way now. I secretly hope maybe I was just testing early....in my head after getting preggo while on birth control.....and doing an assundry of things I shouldn't have been... we should be able to nail it the first time since I'm healthier and smarter now.

I shouldn't be stressing over this. I'm not a patient person though. When I want something....I wanted it five minutes ago or not at all. There's no medium, no in between for me. I swear I could be pregnant.....

I'm terribly excited for my bud, but disappointed at the same time ....not disappointed...just....there's no word for it......If only it had been a little reversed. God's timing, right? Ugh! But she's a great mom...and....well...that's just all there is to it.

Patience, Alice. Patience!!!! Maybe I'm having sympathy pains for her.....gas, ligament cramping....tired???